Growing up

I think this is an impossible task for me. Don't get me wrong by that sentence, yes I'm a fully grown woman by appearance but I think I'm never going to grow up mentally, not because I can't but because I don't really want to.

I don't plan to think and act like a child the whole of my life. If I do, I'd never survive out there. What I meant was that I want a little bit of that childlike innocence for times when I really get to let loose and be myself. 

I foresee life to be so cruel and I really need that part of me, no matter how everyone looks at me or judges me. They don't know the full reason but I don't bloody care. At least this helps put a smile on my face and live everyday happier than the others. 

I like smiling. I really do. And I love laughing. So I really don't want to let anything that happens in life take that away no matter how harsh it's going to be.

Sometimes being mature only magnifies the problem but staying childlike will allow you to see the whole picture. Which is why some answers children give, opens up a whole new world for you to actually explore. They are wiser than we actually are because they don't overthink. That's what I like. 

Been thinking too much over things that  shouldn't even matter. 

"When life gives you lemons, squeeze them over a plate of salmon sashimi and indulge." - Sera

Lol good night. Just random rambling because I really really have reasons for acting how I am normally and I really have to let it out. 

It sucks to be misunderstood lol.

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