Been feeling super down lately. Struck with a bout of the blues. Too many things have been happening that I wish that I had the ability that Tim in About Time has... To rewrite history and make right the things I did wrong.
I wouldn't say I haven't felt happy the whole time but it's only momentary and it ends as soon as I'm alone... So annoyed! Which is why I'm always finding ways to get myself occupied besides doing my work.
Been super needy towards the boy but he isn't available at the moment because he's out of town.
Fill up the void. Keeping myself occupied. Speaking incoherently. Wishing all the people who left came back. But I lost all the guts to make the first move. And I know they would never do so because if they did, they wouldn't have left. Just wish that people feel that way towards me too. It sucks that it's all one-sided.
This shouldn't be me speaking but it is. And it's kinda rare but times like this, do appear. When you reach a dead end, you wish there was a checkpoint to summon you back but life isn't that easy.
Ok shall stop here. Sorry for making you guys depressed too whoever you are or if there's anyone here.
Good night and happy lunar new year.
Xx
P.S. Should really stop being petty and live life the way it should be lived... Life is too fragile. Read a note on facebook that really spoke to me. Its difficult. Nothing is easy. But we have to go through it even if its the worst. Even when I've only learnt how to escape from things. To push. To hide. Just because I was confident people would still come back... Never felt so........
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