moody ? moodless ? moodswing ?

I'm so freaking upset right now I swear I could just break down and cry ... Constant mood swings and stuff that are going on now are so taxing ! And things aren't going well . It's strange how life works eh ? Like one day you can be really close but then become so distant the other . My eye hurts but I don't feel like sleeping . Although sleeping can make me feel better . I feel like a pervert , I kinda enjoy this pain ? I don't know ... I'm confused , I'm 16 and facing big changes . Changes I don't think I can cope with . Though this holiday was enjoyable but it was tough to get through with . And I haven't been hitting the books or real responsible at all . I felt like crying when I watched the happy parts of HSM2 . On the side note , D met mum today (: I think it went off quite well . My life's like a whirlwind right now . Being in denial sucks ! I've gotta find a real hobby to do PRONTO ! I cannot take it anymore !

If only I could just die and get over with it .